Sunday, July 19, 2009

The 1000 Year Weight

'The burden I am having in college is just like carrying a giant teddy on my shoulder'

I have been thinking long and hard, the stuff that I wanted to do with my blog. I hated the slowness and awkwardness of my 512MB computer that sometimes crashed down my Firefox when I am in a good mood. I missed all the typing, the picture posting, and more importantly, my will to keep up with my followers' expectations.

College politics, cursed tests and assignments deadlines to keep up, funky lecturers and enigmatic friends (if for some, gayish) have kept me off the blogging cyberspace for months and months. I did look at my blog but whenever I started typing a few introductory words, my mind went blank. I lost the inspiration I need to keep my blog updated. It's as if the passionate blogging fire is dying off from me.

Or it's because my mom has been monitoring me using the computer behind me, her left eye fixed on the Wah Lah Toi drama and the another eye on me 'fiddling' my keyboard and 'fidgeting' my mouse. Once she sees me blogging, she goes on a constant bickering spree about me being caught under the ISA for allegely posting seditious comments, which I never did.

That even tempted me to create a new blog called '' after an idea I got in college when little 'Kitty' suggested me to conceal my blogging activities from my mom. =3

I always had imaginations going around in my head. I narrate everything that happens around me. The sights, the sounds, the feelings of people and possibly some fuss of my own dealing with my life.

As I watch videos of the late Michael Jackson next to me, I was wondering if I can make a change to myself and adjust the way I see things again. Sometimes, college may be killing me slowly with all its burden, yet I persevere in every way to think positive and be optimistic. I want to accept new challenges and find new opportunities for myself. I want to do new things and I want to learn new stuff. I want to eliminate all that's negative about me. I want change.

Maybe I can achieve this by getting back to my blogging roots again. It wouldn't be very lively like the time when I do my picture posting spree in the past because I am forced to spend more time doing assignments and entertaining my friends. But thanks for being patient in me - you will see more blogging from me, not to say that I can do it every day but depending on my mood.

Oh yeah, baby, let's get starting!

1 comment:

  1. hey, keep continue ^^ your blog is so cool... you halted so long... go go go

    your new follower ^^